these words are my diary screaming out loud

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 21:59:46 GMT

I rarely do surveys. Come to think of it I never do surveys but i'm procrastinating and this is short.

[x] I'm afraid of the quiet.

[x] I am really ticklish.

[sometimes] I'm afraid of the dark

[x] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.

[ ] I am homosexual.

[x] I believe in true love.

[ ] I've run away from home.

[x] I listen to political music.

[ ] I collect comic books.

[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.

[ ] I've stayed out all night

[ ] I open up to others easily

[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.

[ ] I watch the news.

[its kinda pathetic that I don't ] I own over 5 rap CDs

[x] I love Disney movies.

[x] I am a sucker for big blue eyes.

[ ] I don't kill bugs.

[x] I have "x"s in my screen name.

[x] I've slipped and fell in public.

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.

[ ] I love Spam.

[x] I bake well.

[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.

[ ] I have owned something from Abercrombie.

[yea but its a summer job] I have a job.

[x] Talked on a phone for 5+ hours.

[ ] I love Dr. Phil....

[ ] dr pepper

[occasionally] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

[x] I am self-conscious

[x] I love to laugh.

[x] I have tried alcohol.

[ ] drink alcohol on a regular basis.

[ ] I have tried a cigarette.

[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.

[ x (the taste good)] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.

[ ] I can't swallow pills.

[x] I've been out of this country.

[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.

[x(i'm practically obessed) ] I love chocolate.

[(sometimes, when i'm nervous)] I bite my nails.

[x] I play computer games when I'm bored.

[ ] Gotten lost in the city.

[ ] Seen a shooting star.

[(i got my wisdom teeth removed and if they mess up you can loose feeling in your jaw. does that count? oh and I got my tonnsils removed. I think that counts)] Had a serious surgery.

[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas.

[x] Hugged a stranger.

[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of the same sex.

[x (with my sister, thats how we do it)] Been in a fist fight.

[ ] Been arrested.

[x] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of your nose.

[ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

[ ] Made out in an elevator.

[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose.

[ ] Been skydiving.

[ ] Been bungee jumping.

[ ] Gotten stiches

[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.

[x] Bitten someone.

[ ] Been to Niagara Falls

[x] Gotten the chicken pox.

[x] Crashed/walked into a car.

[ ] been to Japan.

[ ] Ridden in a taxi.

[(when I was little, I used to open the little debbie snacks like the swiss rolls and hostess cupcakes and eat them in the shops because my mom wouldn't buy them for me) ] shoplifted.

[ ] Been fired.

[(I don't know because i generally don't express my feelings to a guy)] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.

[(i'm not gonna lie, I took a pen and some chocolates off of someone elses desk, and if I had the chance, i'd do it again)] Stole something from your job.

[ ] Gone on a blind date.

[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach/counselor

[ ] Been married.

[ ] Gotten divorced.

[ ] Been to Canada.

[x] Been on a Plane.

[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show

[ ] Thrown up in a bar.

[ ] Eaten sushi.

[ ] Been snowboarding

[ ] Been skiing.

[x] Been ice skating

[x] Cried in public

[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.

[x] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.

[x] Thought of someone almost 24/7

[x] hated the world

[x] Watching other people suffer sometimes helps ease my pain.

[x] Watch soap operas....

[ ] I Like blood.

Eh, that wasn't that bad

-I don't wanna grow up, I wanna stay young and wrinkle free... I'm afraid of the future because I don't know where i'm gonna end up or if i'll get into the colleges I want to go and when I grow up I don't wanna have regrets. I'm most definitely stresses

floating thoughts

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 01:43:00 GMT

I want a fairy tale

^Head _over ^Heels

Movie-perfect

Romance

but then again. . . who doesn't?

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 04:35:11 GMT

So I wrote this incredibly long entry and it messed up so I deleted it but I forgot to save the words in it so now I must retype it. . . great

MeGaN rYaN aNgUiAnO turns 17 in 17 days!! yea!!! and i'm so excited because she thinks were just gonna pick her up in the morning, I played it off so well its ridiculous!! She has no idea whats coming!

SO I was talking to my peeps (yea peeps) today and I realized that theres this awesomely amazing chick that I would play outside with like every single day of my life back in 7th grade and today it hit me that I don't even talk to her anymore. I don't even know whats going on with her or who she is and my mommy told me that she ran into her dad the other day and she said told me all these things that I didn't even know. I mean were acquitances if you even wanna call it that because the extent of our conversations is hi and then we go on about our business.

Also I wanna have a massive sleepover with all my friends and I want us to dance and just go butt wild crazy!! I mean table dancing and pizza and cookie dough and movies cuz i love watching movies and I just want it to be fun!!! and INSANE!! and I wish I had a lake house to have this party at cuz that was just be pimp.

Before I die, I wanna go streaking. . . is that weird?

and I saw the movie waiting and it is absolutely HILAROUS and i'm gonna buy it the 2nd it comes out fo sho!!

Sing me something soft

Sad and delicate

Or loud and out of key

Sing me anything

Straylight run

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 04:42:22 GMT

I went to my first concert with my best friends lil sis alena and my best friend alicia and my best friend megan and we had a blast. I even got a t-shrt. so yipee for me.

I have realized lately that everyone is changing so dramatically and through it all I think for the most part i've stayed the same. I mean everywhere I look things aren't the same. All the old friends I used to have aren't there anymore but I do truly adore my new friends. I was on the phone a couple of nights ago with this amazing/incredibly horny chick and we were talking about all the good times. Like when we were in 6th grade and all the words we used to use like spify and coolio and just how stupid we were. I like conservations like that were you just get lost in the past. I dunno I mean I hate change because I used to move all the time and I hated started over so when you move 6 times (which i've sure it doesn't compare to military brats) you begin to hate change but even though I hate it I love how people have changed. For example my best friend alicia has become so wild and just I dunno poped out of her shell and i'm so proud of her and its insanely funny now, i mean before she was funny but now shes hilarious. I dunno i'm just mumbling and leting out all my thoughts at once...

porn is educational. . .watch more of it

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 03:37:49 GMT

wow so like 5 minutes ago I realized that I have a livejoural. I've been so buy with work that I keep forgeting things like my livejournal.

MY BEST FRIEND DREW ME!!!! I love her to death.

So i've decided that I am definitely need to work less and I think i'm gonna take off a couple of days next week cuz there now paying me for overtime which is good but at the same time I'm working so much it's insane but it's because I probably won't be getting a car. :( oh well one less person that you don't have to worry about hitting you cuz they're a spastic driver.

By the way I GOT A CELL PHONE!!! i know about time rite??? the number is 845-6118 and I love recieveing calls but I usually only talk on it after 9 and on the weekend but still call me, i love calls.

I'll try to keep you posted. . .

yea for money boo for taxes

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 05:45:31 GMT

OMG OMG OMG I was looking at people's myspaces and omg theres this one kid that was in my 7th grade science class and he was scrawny (spell check?) and short and now hes tall and GORGEOUS!!!! He's like the ugly duckling gone sexy. OMG he is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT! I can't get over it it's like a new man. What a trasformation. ok I just had to get that off my chest.

So I still have no life cause I work 24/7 and I got my first pay check!!!! but it was only for one week and I worked 29.25 hours and I made (drum roll) $189.09 AHHHHH it was higher but stupid people took taxes. There all jerks.

There's something about the way you looked at me

And its strange that things change

but i'll be wanting you so D e s p e r a t e l y

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 03:23:22 GMT

This entry is completely dedicated to SHANNON NICOLE PIPKIN!!!!!!!

HAPPY SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY HOTTIE!!!!!!

I <3 Shannon

psshhh did i mention that shannons so hot.

By the way theres this girl that I've know since like diapers or well not really diapers but we act like lil kids so you could consider it the diaper days and shes so kool and fun to hang out with and shes just a very facinating person to watch like you could stare at her for hours like a televsion set or Johnny Depp or Brad Pitt in Troy she's definitely in that catergory. (i can't spell) and i just wanted everyone to know my affection and appreciation for her and even tho we had some rocky things that happened she is still my most fascinate/fun/weird/crazy/make me do anything/breakalltherules/outrageous/brittneyspearslover/ that I adore and she is completey irreplaceable and one of a kind

yeahhh for betty

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 03:14:04 GMT

Yea so i'm a lil behind on entries so let me tell ya wats been going on

i work a 40 hour work week for 7 dollars and hour and i've offically noticed i've lost my social life. I went 2 a festival with alicia and let me tell everyone FESTIVALS ARE NOT FUN!!! unless its something your interested in like i'm not the biggest fan of jazz and I went 2 a jazz festival so it shows how smart I am. The day after (sunday) I went 2 the mall and bought a BETTY BOOP PURSE!!

I LOVE BETTY BOOP
and thats my life

Put a smile on your face

Fri, 27 May 2005 20:16:07 GMT

THIS IS THE 3RD time i've written this entry i wrote it twice last night and both times it got erased it's pissing me off!!! so lets try again shall we. . .

WHAT NOW BITCHES!!! 1ST DAY OF SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(PAULA- though I only knew you for 2weeks? i think it was a good 2 weeks and I shall miss you because you were definitely one of those people that I would have wanted to be one of my best friends and even though I know you'll never read this. . . I just wanted to let the world know)

On a much lighter note. . . today was so badass and i was worried about my english final and even though I did badly, its all kool. It seriously feels like it was the first day of school. I dunno who i'm gonna hang out with or well I know alicia is a must (as always) and so is megan and jessica and Kevin (what would life be like without kevin in the world) and Kelsey but there are people that i'm not as close with that still call me their best friends or at least their friends but I'd like to spend time with them to.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA CHRISTINE FIKANI!!!! SHE'S 16!!!

i'm really excited

so here are some pictures of the hottest people I know. . .

Some Pictures of some of the hotties. . .

English

Ashley with a retarted smile

(tilt your head to view)

everyone needs an Asian friend

Kevin and Ben who turned his head ( I mean who wouldn't want their picture taken) :)

Chemistry ( I swear I have more friends in Chem but the final was so long I didn't have time to take all their pics)

JACKIE M!!! shes so sweet

Choir

Natalie workin the camera

hahaha Hageman, what a loser

the gorgeous Lynette

what sluts!! but I love them anyways

My B-day Luch crew and inspiration to skip lunch and go to Sonic

Medical Terminology (its not as dorky as it sounds)

Chryna making the most attractive face ever

Dustin Kaylie and Chyna (some amazing kids)

Spanish

Trey and Catherine

Sarah and Paula (i'm gonna miss her)

This is this chick I met and I needed a friend in Spanish class so when we partnered off I would have someone to hang out with I think her names Jessica?

Before/After School

Stephanie working the trashcan, were gonna remember that trashcan forever

Jenny with a big smile

aww look how cute Lauren is and then theres Megan

This is Allegra Fox and if you happen to see her tell her its going to be alright because she's been really sad lately, this guy she's liked for a long time has gone to college. I feel your pain allegra

She does it 3 times a day, I guess 4 know because it's summer and she has more time

kinky, very kinky

Parma caressing her ass ( the camera cut it off :( )

Now this is the Megan we all know and love

How gorgeous is my best friend??

Sat, 21 May 2005 06:27:07 GMT

so i have really really munipulative friend that somehow manages to keep me on the phone for longer than necessary and even tho we have run out of things to talk about we still manage to stay on the phone for ours. gosh. ne who i'm a real slacker. it happens. I've been so lazy. so does ne one watch punk'd cuz i'm def. a punk freak (the show not the music)and i saw the chingy episode cuz its my favorite one b/c he's all like i'm a "celebrity" like its some big deal n he was trying 2 get away from the cops n he figures that because hes a "celebrity" they'll let him go. TODAY I SKIPPED!!!! boo ya to all of ya'll who thought i'd chicken out. IT was so thrilling n fun. I felt like a rebel. I'm def a loser. I went 2 lunch with nicole n kevin (the coolest gay man you'll ever meet). So in choir news (cuz i've realized that i'm the biggest choir freak in the world n i don't even try 2 be it just happened) i might make varisy which really isn't important to majority of the ppl.

Hey how you doing lil momma let me whisper in ya ear

tell ya something you might like ta hear. . .

(i'm definitely going 2 go up to someone n whisper in thier ear or i want someone 2 whisper in my ear cuz it'd be kool/arousing)

hyper

Sat, 07 May 2005 04:03:59 GMT

I just finished pop show for REAGAN!! and it was awesome n we were alrite n my friend BRITTNEY PEREZ kicked ass!!! she sang ain't no mountain high enough with her brother n she was amazing!! i loved it. I'll add the pics from pop night soon enough

so i'm just in this cherry mood n i just don't wanna sit down

i'm comming for that numba 1 spot

old memories

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 04:51:02 GMT

Hate it or Love it the underdogs ontop

and i'm gonna shine homie until my heart stops

I most definitely have tons on my mind. I haven't updated in a L O N G time. Well well well. . .

so i'm most definitely crushing on like what?? 10 different guys?? I think i'm horomonly imbalanced

I s e r i o u s l y need a man

(if you didn't notice i discovered how to use color on this thing)

some old memories . . .

My best friend. . . i know you wanna do her

Shannon Nicole Pipkin. . . lover since what?? 8th grade?? best friend 4eva she looks even hotter now

i was his kids. . . i'm not gonna lie

i'm thinking. . .

this might be very immature but i find this very very funny

POOKA!!! i'm obessed. . . i know

i love alicia b.c shes the coolest person in the world.

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 01:54:22 GMT

alicias house bitch it kick ass you should be jealous and i know you are. mwah were going to walk around alicias pimp neighboorhood then go to the pool (not to swim) just to talk adios pimpin people who read this shizits!

P.S. alicia made this... if u couldnt tell

its been a while

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 05:16:42 GMT

well welll well. . . i haven't written in this in a while. . . alots been going on. Today I talked to megan and after she had a good cry i helped her through it. It totally looked like a therapy session. It was really cool because I love talking to people about their problems. This week suxed!!! i'm most def the person in those testing rooms thats last to finish and everyone gives you those dirty looks like whats your problem, why are you taking so long. . yeah so there was one day where I was really annoyed because this chick kept looking over my shoulder to see how many I had left so of course beings the bitch I am, I took my time. I went back over and looked over my work thennnn I saved the bubbling in part for last so then I had to go back and do that. She looked really annoyed by the time it was over. I was so amused. I know, I know I'm mean but it happens. This weekend, our neighborhood we are having our anual fiesta celebration, and aparently the BUSH mine company is coming to perform so yea . . . It doesn't look like fun and my mom volunteered me to work at the moon bounce but i'm not going. So so so i'll just be "sick". oh yea i've definitely become guy obessed and I'm becoming annoyed but I just can't stop myself. I swear i'm not even thinking and I start talking. Oh today i was angry, SOMEONE has the audacity to wear my outfit on the same day that I do and i swear walking down the hallway with this person who just COULDN't wear ANYTHING else on this one day was horrible. Of course everyone in school is 2 wrapped up in their own drama to notice the two of us match but still the point is that she has TONS of clothes and can afford to throw out a wardrobe at anytime has to wear my outfit. ok thats enough ranting. . .OH i saw Kristen Giptner at subway. It was weird i didn't even recognize her, i kept squinting because I couldn't make out her face. I'm sure theres lots more to say but this will do 4 know. lata playas

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 04:19:58 GMT

today was so awesome!!! i went to Reagan fest and stayed for like 30 minutes so that was just grand... n me n megan were pretending that we were on a date n megan told some chick that i was her date n the chick was like megan u bagged a good one! that right there made my day. Then we left and i spent the day at megans house cuz of course i had nothin better to do. . ugh i'm just playing around cuz i had fun like always. I haven't updated this thing in a long time and i was orignally just gonna make this for me to read and just keep it like a journal like i do with my xanga where everything is private and i just have it as a place to put my thoughts but i don't think people actually take the time to read this?? or well there are a few or the few that kno i have one. well i'm gonna go cuz i can barely stay up

race 4 the cure

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 04:56:37 GMT

2 day i went to go volunteer at race for the cure. It was alot of work and i have to walk brittney around in this dinasour costume. omg she cracks me up she was funny and it was hilarious when the lil kids would start crying when they saw her. man o man oh and ya mos def good morining. The best part was when the lady came up to us and asked me n Britt if we were both 16 n we were both like yea and she goes well do u 2 volunteer alot and we go yea. So she basically tells us that during fiesta week she needs workers for like the full 10 days and all we would do is hand out flier and work with kids, she said the only difference from volunteering was that we would be paid $9 and hour!! and she told us that she'd find us summer jobs or part time jobs or full time jobs, its so awesome!!! i'm so excited because she would find a job 4 both me and britt!!! It really made my day. I only got 4 hours of sleep so i bascailly came home and crashed. I just watched the movie My Girl, wow that was soooo sad!!! i couldn't belive it! the lil boi!! i completely balled like i was 5. Well i think i'm gonna go watch a movie
later days

in the end. . .things are gonna be just fine

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 04:18:30 GMT

wow so there is most definetly a really cute guy and i'm not saying that i like him but i am 16 and i can finally date but theres alot i wanna do before i date anyone. I have alot of work to do on myself first before i'm "dateable". so i was thinking that i wish Reagan has a newspaper that talked about things that are real. REal issues like sex and drugs and sucide and clicks and depression and things that people would actually care to read. I mean i think i'd be cool is people put things in it so maybe someone could see that there not the only one going through stuff like that?? well i dunno its just an idea. I'm so excited i only have to go to skool for 1 class period then off to lunch with my mommie and then 2 take the accuplacer test at SAC. oh well i'm off

yeah

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 07:06:53 GMT

SOOOOOOO 2day i had THE BEST DAY EVER and i was so excited. I did my daily gigly and laughing bit during 3rd n 4th ( you know how you laugh at everything a guy says even if its not funny) and then i chilled at megans after skool!!! i was sooooo excited!! i feel bad 4 my lil sis cuz she kinda screwed things over 4 her so yea but its all good and its late so i'm prob gonna go watch a movie n fall asleep
much lovin

yes

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 01:25:30 GMT

2morrow will be the greatest day ever and i'll be 16 so it will most definetly be the greatest day ever so i'm really excited!!!! and thats all i can think of 2 say rite now

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 01:09:19 GMT

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BLOW ME.
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